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Trapped

The sudden sound of ringtone brought me back to earth with the tap water still running and a girl staring back at me through the mirror inside a bathroom.  Took me several more seconds to realize that I was in the café’s bathroom I visited all by myself just because I did not feel like being at home nor at class. Phone still vibrating inside my jeans pocket, I moved to turn off the faucet, dried my hands a bit by shaking them, and picked my phone up before sliding the screen. “Where the hell are you, Mace? You do know that we’ve got a presentation in like less than 30 minutes, don’t you? Gosh, you forgot, didn’t you? Nope! I don’t want to hear it. Just come here A.S.A.P!” and the line went off just like that, typical Kaitlyn. I’ll be there. I found myself typed and hit sent - not really thinking about how I was gonna be back in school that fast when the café I am currently at is one hour walk away. One thing for sure, I must start by getting out of this bathro...

Not The Whole Story

"yet it doesn't tell the whole story..." How often it is do we assume that we know things just because we got to see the tiniest glimpse of it How often do we got taken aback when some couple, who seems to be super happy in their Instagram posts, ended their relationship How often do we egoistically put the blame on someone just because we think they don't have as much problem as we do How often do we believe that a man is despicable over just one single mistake How often do we make judgement about an ex-boyfriend from her side of heartbreak only How often do we think that the girl, who we believe got everything under her control, doesn't deserve to break down once in a while. Let me tell you now plain and simple, it never tells the whole story. You don't know that those couple had been tangled in the toxic-draining-relationship that doesn't lead anywhere You don't know that the person you blame had already sacrificed a lot, fighting over...

Mean It!

"and Lord,  please help us to say what we mean and mean what we say,"  That simple sentence said in a prayer by my Pastor on Sunday morning can't seem to leave my head. How often it is in life that we give out words that we don't really think twice about. Sometimes we say the one of the 3 magic words; sorry,  often without really putting some sense of sincerity to it. Some other times, we say things we don't really ever gonna carry out when we got too emotional. And then there are people who make promises without the intention to carry it out. There are also others who say they have forgiven but still get agitated over the mention of a name. Just by the corner, there are groups of girls who make insulting jokes casually because they think it's fun to verbally bully a "willing" friend. On the other corner there are another teenagers who utter mean things just because they can. Then I wonder, how often do we take our words for granted....

Not Alone.

Hey there, how's your day going? is everything all right these days? how are you? are you, okay? ... This one is written to all of you out there, needing someone to hear you out. As I was on a short weekend getaway with my best friend last weekend (which you can read about in a blogpost written by her HERE ), we were blessed to be able to savour the serenity of nature without the hustle of other tourists. It was just us and the waterfall. Just the two of us and the uncertainty of what's laying in front of the dark tunnel. There and only then, we both finally understood the meaning behind the sentence of humans are a social creature. We all need someone. Things are always better when you have someone to share it with. It doesn't matter whether you are an extrovert or an introvert, we all enjoy life by sharing it with other people. Oh yes, I am very much aware with the fact that all problems in life comes because of the existence of other people. But, thinking a...

Note To Self

"But sometimes, I'm just tired of trying. Tired of being the one who cares the most Tired of being the only one who seems to put 100% in it Tired of being the one everyone depends on Tired of living up to each and every one of those expectation Tired of never making my dream comes true Tired of figuring out what life means" Is that you? Is that what you feel today? Have you ever thought that before? Lots of us have Here's some secret for you; YOU ARE NOT ALONE. You're gonna be okay. Just don't give up just yet You are called to give more for you've been given more If you can do it, don't run from it Go and seize those opportunity For then one day, you'll understand what it's worth. Your every sacrifices Your every tears Your every just one more time struggle It matters. You might not know it now, but you matter. Keep your head held high Keep on the good fight you're fighting It's okay to tell your trusted ...

Little Faith

People say you reap what you sow Cheated with someone, you'll get cheated Hurt someone and you'll get hurt Disappoint someone and someone else will surely come disappoint you But sometimes, that's not always the case, isn't it? There are people who do nothing but goodness to other but got treated unfairly. There are people who messed with everyone's life yet they get to live surrounded by fortune. But then again, who are we to claim the right in deciding what's fair and what's not. Claiming that a thing is not fair or that someone doesn't deserve some grace is as if we're playing God, don't you think? Still though, I bet like me, some of you can't help yourself from wondering from time to time about what we can really do to change a situation around. Is it all according to our work or is it all just up to fate. Believing that fate just exist doesn't really sound fair, don't you think? Yet here I am back to my first stat...

Small yet Powerful

The alarm that woke me up earlier this morning accompanied with a knock on my bedroom door suddenly put a thought in my head. Despite the comfort of my blanket and cool air conditioned air, I decided against my sheer will and sit up straight and get the day moving. Nevertheless, here's whats on my mind today. As we start our day, going all over the same old routines and obligations of the day, have you ever stop to think about how one life can touch other in the midst of all the busyness? There are so many small yet powerful things that we can do today - all of which affect others.  Friends and even strangers.  A little smile brightens up your roommate's busy day. A simple honest compliment may cheer a friend who are currently dealing with anxiety. A kind gesture of standing up and offering a seat in a bus for an old lady can remind her that there are still kindness in this world.  A short hello chat to a long lost friend asking how they're doing h...

If You Can Change One Thing In Your Life...

These days, I figured that we have the tendency of dreaming of things we don't have and take what we have for granted too often. Well maybe its simply in our DNA to never be satisfied. Not long ago, I asked the simple question of "if you can change one thing in your life, what would it be" on Instagram using the ever famous feature of "ask me question" sticker. It turns out that some of the answers I received somehow broke my heart. A boy wished to not let himself get overweight for so long A girl wished to have a different kind of 17th birthday celebration A boy wished to start looking for his passion sooner A girl wished to never let go of a special someone that meant a lot in her life A boy wished to muster better confidence A girl wished to be blessed with a "smarter" brain A boy wished to never fell in love with the wrong person A girl wished to have a slimmer body and prettier face A boy wished to be able to cut his laziness A gir...

Knowing Someone

Too often in life, we assume that we know someone. Worse than that - even more often - we judge a person before we truly know them. But, have you ever had that moment in your life when you just can't comprehend the speed of your reputation preceding you - creating impression about your life in a way that you can't control and are not pleased about? (hell, at times it doesn't even contain a touch of fact) For me personally, I want to be known by you for who I really am not from what you heard about me from other people - who heard stories from bunch of others, and the cycle goes on. Don't you desire the same? I believe that life and relationships will be much easier and better with no prejudice hiding behind the dark, ready to gallop and swallow harmony at every chances. Well now, let's put it into our consideration For each and every person we thought we know, think again. For each and every label we put upon and we bear for ourselves, think again. If ...

The Fear That Comes With "Goodbye(s)"

"inspired by couple of teardrops from dearest friends" As the clouds begin to darken and it's as if the sun is losing the fight, I can't help but wonder. As half of 2018 already passed and the next month coming, I can't help but wonder. As the words spread, realisation hit, and people reacted in all different manner, I can't help but wonder. I wonder why on earth do we have to experience goodbyes with the people we love in life - even if its temporary. As a matter of fact, there are some people who must face goodbyes more than their fair share. But then again, who are we to understand what's fair and what's not Does it ever get easier over time? Will we ever get used to it?  "It" being saying goodbye and facing all different kind of fear.  Fear of being forgotten For what its worth, this one fear is always there whether we admit it or not because we simply never know. We can forget them, they can forget us. Even over the pro...

Promises

Have you ever heard the phrase of “do not make promises you can’t keep?” Ever think twice about that? I mean how could we? How could we say that we’ll love someone forever when we know that love is such a volatile emotion and after the so many stories of heartbreak and cheating bastards out there. Here and there we witness how human can be such a mean cruel creator towards one another - especially to ones that we say we love.  How could we say that we will be there forever for someone or that we will have their back when we do not even hold the power of what tomorrow becomes. We can't even be sure if we will not be in the middle of a deep sleep when they need us or if we will even wake up tomorrow. Maybe tomorrow, we're not in any position to help anyone, maybe we will need help. Who knows.  How could we say that it is our commitment   to do our best with anything entrusted to us when we know ourselves that it is exactly what everyone said in...